Why Am I So Lonely?

Why Am I So Lonely

God, why am I so lonely?

I see the couples walking by

I see the birds with their nest

But God, I have you!

So, why do I feel this way?

I look up at the stars so bright

And I feel your love on me

But a coldness chills me to the bone

And I feel the darkness pressing in

It overwhelms me and suffocates me,

God, Why do I feel so lonely?

I see the bright sun burning in the sky

And the blueness stretching on

Without a single cloud up in the sky

And I can feel your love pouring down on me,

But God, there’s a storm ragging within

And I feel so, lonely.

It doesn’t make sense because

I know how to add and subtract,

I know why the grass is green

And what is blue and what is yellow,

But God, you fill such a void within my soul

And it is like all I’ve ever heard

But God, I am so lonely.

I sit and listen to the fan so sad

I lay in bed and hear the crying of my cat

Begging me to let him in and sleep with me,

God, why do I feel this way?

I’ve always associated this with loneliness

But what if I was wrong?

God, why don’t I have the answer?

Why don’t you whisper why?

And I think how lonely you might be.

God, don’t you know I love you?

I know you love me too.

So, why do I feel this loneliness

So strong upon me like a weight?

I listen and there is silence… (pause)

I think I understand,

God?...

I love you.

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